In Darkness

I wrote these words for someone I love deeply.  Someone who was experiencing a living hell. 

Daily, the salty tears formed rivulets down my cheeks. My heart was shattered. There seemed to be no light. Only despair. It was a time during which I learnt to truly believe. A time to realise and to accept that there is always a greater plan. That the right thing will happen. But only, when it is meant to happen. Only when acceptance has been attained.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   Ingrid

In Darkness

In the shadows you stand

Alone, frightened, broken 

Heartache and pain devouring your very being

Your spirit, body and mind shattered

Your essence itself in jeopardy

Through eyes sad and empty 

The grey mists of life are all you see

All you feel

Their icy touch consuming you

Blinding your vision

Terror-stricken you exist

Unable to move, to partake, to reason

Devoid of comprehending

Fists clenched 

A portrayal of your pain

You are nowhere to be found

Timid, frail, depleted

Existing in your own cocoon

Evading all that scares you

So alone

Let us in

We are knocking

Pleading in our weakness and inability

To find answers 

Grant us access

Lost in your fear, in your pain

Hostility rules supreme

Detached from those you love

Isolation is what you crave

To be alone in the hell that engulfs you

You feel the need to be enraged

Anger all-consuming

Blaming others

Seeing only darkness

Blinded by emotions, fear and desperation

For you are not the only victim

Alone, frightened, broken

My frustration soaring unprecedented

Devoid of answers

Feeling more than worthless

Standing before you

My arms embracing 

Aching

Begging to find answers for souls

Embedded in turmoil

Searching through the past

Grasping at mere allusions

Clutching at theories of those more knowledgeable

Whispers of emptiness

Bombarded with questions to self

Deepest desire to heal you

To restore a life beautiful and full

To move forward in love and strength

Accepting of lessons Life brings forth

Surrendering

Where have you gone?

I cannot reach you

Searching I am

Icy cold fingers of fear 

Clutching my being

Crying out

Calling your name

Searching

Your spirit waning

Engulfed by ghosts of the past

Begging you to partake

Unleash the madness

Retrieve the strength to fight

Abolish emotions of neglect, of being misunderstood

Of fear, of doubt

I know you hear my voice

Hold on tight

Be calm

Breathe deep and slow

Inhale all that is soothing and love

Life force seeps into your every cell

Bringing light and wisdom

Allow it

Surrender to it

For it is yours

The arms of healing embrace you

Powerful yet gentle

Caressing your being

Absorb it

Allow the higher forces to engulf your broken soul