A Coffee Date with Self

 

This morning I sat alone on the couch. The morning sun throwing her gentle arms around me.  Cradling my mug of hot coffee between my hands, I closed my eyes. And had a coffee date with Self. 

I really like Self. She has my back. She is always supportive. Always understanding. Even though she may not agree with my decisions at times. Self gives me the space to experiment and to explore options. She knows I need this in order to evolve. To become the best Ingrid I can be.

There are times however, when Self nags me incessantly until I listen. And heed her precious advice. Times when she ignites the fires of wisdom – loud and clear – to get her message through my unwavering ego. My strong will. My character. She tells me NO. With strength and insight, Self tells me that was not the brightest move. Or idea. I know then the depth of Self’s love for me. She is protecting me. Sometimes, from myself. I find comfort in acknowledging that Self always knows best. Despite it being really challenging following her advice at times. On most occasions, in her own way, with her own modest calm manner, Self guides me silently in the right direction. I need only to stop. To be silent. And to listen.

Self sees me. Truly sees me. She feels my pain. Silently crying with me. Never making judgement. Her love and respect for me is priceless. She is compassionate and understanding of my doubts. My fears. My pains. My loneliness at times. She shares my happiness. Knows what is meaningful to me. Self believes in me. More than ever thought possible.

We are best friends. Inseparable. Self and Ingrid. She knows me better than I know myself. She is my greatest teacher. My guide. The inspiration I seek. At a time when most around me seems broken. And is broken. I turn inward. Inward to Ingrid. To Self. I know the answers lie deep within the boundaries of my space. My consciousness. My core. 

Today time was made to talk to Self. Beneficial to both of us it was. A promise to uphold. For each day there is surely nothing more important than talking to Self. Listening to Self. Walking with Self.